What happened to Jennette McCurdy? iCarly actress opens up on dark side of being a child star in revelatory memoir

Former Nickelodeon star Jennette McCurdy is all set to publish her revelatory memoir titled I’m Glad My Mom Died that will explore the complicated relationship she shared with her mother as well as her dark experiences of being forced into becoming a child star.

In her book, the actress revealed how her mother controlled her life and career from a young age, which caused her to live in “constant anxiety, shame, and self-loathing.”

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Jennette McCurdy, who is best known for playing the role of Sam Puckett in the teen sitcom iCarly, has also opened up about her struggles with eating disorders, addiction, and unhealthy relationships in her memoir.

The actress also noted that her issues got worse after her mother passed away shortly before she appeared in the 2013 icarly spin off Sam & Cat. However, McCurdy started undergoing therapy which helped her deal with the situation better.

A look into excerpts from Jennette McCurdy’s upcoming memoir

Jennette McCurdy's book 'I’m Glad My Mom Died'  will be released on August 9 (Image via Axelle/Bauer-Griffin/

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Jennette McCurdy then mentioned how she continued to act and perform against her own desire only to comply by her mother’s wishes:

“That part of me is foolish. That part of me doesn’t realize that this is my Special Skill, that this is good for me, for my family, for Mom. The more I can cry on cue, the more jobs I can book; the more jobs I can book, the happier Mom will be. I take a deep breath, then smile up at Mom.”

The actress also recalled how she failed to perform well at the audition and attempted to tell her mother that she did not like acting, only to leave the latter disappointed:

“’I don’t want to act anymore’ I say before I even realize I’ve said it. Mom looks at me in the rearview mirror. A mixture of shock and disappointment fills her eyes with her. I immediately regret saying anything.”

She also shared that her mother immediately turned hysterical, made her feel guilty and compelled her not to quit acting:

“She bangs on the steering wheel, accidentally hitting the horn. Mascara trickles down her cheeks from her. She’s hysterical, like I was in the Hollywood Homicide audition. Her hysteria from Ella frightens me and Ella demands to be taken care of… ‘Never mind,’ I repeat. ‘Let’s just forget I said anything. Sorry.’”

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A second excerpt from the book highlighted the moment McCurdy bagged Sam’s role in icarly. She shared that she felt “elated” not because of her own happiness but for the fulfillment of her mother’s dreams:

“I jumped into Mom’s arms. She squeezes me. I’m elated. Everything’s going to be different now. Everything’s going to be better. Mom will finally be happy. Her dream of her has come true.”

Jennette McCurdy’s tell-all memoir I’m Glad My Mom Died, will reportedly hit the shelves this month, starting August 9.

Jennette McCurdy on her experiences as a child artist

Jennette McCurdy in a still from 'iCarly'  (Image via Lisa Rose/Getty Images)

McCurdy told the publication that she was only 10 years old when her mother bleached her hair and whitened her teeth, and was just 11 years old when she started “calorie counting.” She said that the practice later caused her to develop eating disorders.

The actress shared that she was suffering from anorexia when she bagged her role in icarly and later developed the condition of binge eating and bulimia. She further added that she would still suffer from eating disorders if her mother de ella had been alive:

“I know if my mom were alive, I’d still have an eating disorder. It was only distance from her that allowed me to get healthy.”

Jennette McCurdy further opened up about her painful experiences as a child actor on her podcast Empty Inside and shared that she was “ashamed” and “embarrassed” of the roles she played in the past:

“My experience with acting is, I’m so ashamed of the parts that I’ve done in the past. I get that this answer is super unlikable and it’s like, ‘Oh, boo-hoo, you were famous when you were a kid. Oh, cry me a river.’ But it is true to me, so that’s the most I can offer.”

She added:

“I resent my career in a lot of ways. I feel so unfulfilled by the roles that I played and felt like it was the most just like cheesy, embarrassing.”

McCurdy mentioned that she was partly embarrassed of being a Nickelodeon star because she wasn’t fulfilled or satisfied with her work:

“I did the shows that I was on from like 13 to 21, and by 15, I was already embarrassed. My friends at 15 weren’t like watching the show. They’re not like, ‘Oh cool, you’re on this Nickelodeon show.’ It was embarrassing. I imagine there’s a very different experience to be had with acting if you’re proud of your roles and if you feel fulfilled by them.”

The actress then shared that she decided to quit acting because she realized she never wanted to act and was forced to take up the job by her mother as she was the primary source of income in the family:

“I quit a few years ago because I initially didn’t want to do it. My mom put me in it when I was 6 and by sort of age, I guess, 10 or 11, I was the main financial support for my family. My family didn’t have a lot of money, and this was the way out, which I actually think was helpful in driving me to some degree of success.”

Jennette McCurdy appeared on all six seasons of icarly between 2007 and 2012 and reprized her role as Sam Puckett for the spinoff Sam & Cat. However, she officially confirmed her retirement from acting in 2017 and did not star in the Paramount+ reboot of icarly.


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